Well I failed again today but God picked me up dusted me off and got me back on track! The day started off good, We took our son to KFC for lunch, went to the park, and then to walmart. Sounds like an average Saturday to me lol! Well then my husband got the statement from the board of nursing that we were waiting for and my fear set in yet again. I read the statement from my husbands previous job and became infuriated. Well instead of properly taking my anger out on positive things I took my anger out on my husband and blamed him for things that were not his fault and said things that I should never had said. This in turn made my son start crying and screaming cause he reacts very badly to loud noise especially screaming. I felt so bad afterward but it still took me awhile to calm down. Well God got me up from this and I then proceeded to help my husband write his statement to the board of nursing. I sent it to a friend in the legal field and she said it was nicely written! That made me feel good not only about myself but that my schooling is actually paying off.
I need to learn to process my thoughts better before reacting in fear. Ive been praying about it for awhile but I need to learn to put my faith into action better. I also know though that it is all about practice not perfection and I will never be perfect because only God is perfect!
On another note my mother was released from the hospital today and even though her kidney has gotten worse her levels did get a little better yesterday so they will inevitably need to start dialysis but they will be able to still prolong it for still awhile longer yet. I do believe that this is still good news! I know my mom is very sick but I pray that she continues to take care of herself properly because she has family that truly does love her and wants her around for many more years to come!
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