Ok so I've been having some struggles lately and decided that blogging may be beneficial for my recovery process. Let me first introduce you to myself. My name is Maribeth and im a 31 year old married mother of a 20 month old little boy. I am also a recovering IV drug addict and have been clean for almost 2 and a half years. Im also in college and my main goal is to work in the area of victim advocacy helping teenagers who have been caught up in the sex traffic industry.
Ok so now that Ive introduced myself let me talk a little about my current situations. My husband is an LPN nurse and has been struggling with his job lately as well as issues with his former job. so now ive been trying to look into legal advice to help him with his issues as well as help him possibly get another job. Well on top of that weve both been dealing with our son who is being evaluated for possible asbergers syndrome. He slams his head a lot and has a lot of trouble with sensory issues. If this is not enough I got a call yesterday morning that my mom was taken by ambulance to the hospital. My dad found her unconscious in bed foaming at the mouth. Long story short her kidney is failing and it is hurting her blood sugar. Her blood sugar keeps bottoming out and they cant get it to stay up. Ive been trying to cling to God through all of this but I have to admit I fail daily! I have trouble relying on faith and give it to God only to take it back 5 minutes later. Some how I think I can fix it all on my own even though logically I know that that has never worked before.
On another note school starts next week and again im negatively projecting that this term is going to be harder than the last. I struggle with organization issues and tend to procrastinate. This term my goal is to try and not only better organize my papers but my time as well. I need to better prioritize my school work as well as family things and housework. Im sure many other parents can relate to what im going through but with adding being a recovering addict to the mix my old character defects tend to pop up and become a problem. Ive been talking to my counselor and going to celebrate recovery meeting but I feel like blogging will help me get more off my chest
You are a strong and amazing woman/mother. You should be proud that your son has such a woman to look up to. We all fall and fail daily but it is your faith that will get you through each day. You have had many prayers answered...you made good grades last semester, your son is happy and healthy, your husband got a job and your mother stayed out of the hospital for a while. Focus on that and know that God hears you and will respond as He sees fit. Your answered prayers may not have come with the perfect job for your husband, the cure for your mother or perfect health for Kalib but God knows what you can handle. Why else would He give you such a special little man to mother? :) Stay strong and know that you have so many on your side. God Bless.
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